So I'm bored and have writers block, so I'm just basically doing crappy journals about everything and anything that spring boards into my head, which mean for all we know the next journal could be about bloody cows or tea or somit' for all we know i could plans for world bloody domination... I don't know -_-
Okay here have some facts you honestly couldn't care less about:
1- I have a mean streak a mile wide, serious. (I'm seriously a very mean person, it's horrible the things I've done to people. But I am trying to be a better person and keep my mean side under lock and key)
2- I have done some disgusting stuff just to get what I want... I'm not proud, but you gotta do, what you gotta do if you want some that bad.
3-When I was younger my Dad told me the quickest way to learn to swim was to get someone to throw you in because your instincts kick in. At my primary school we had a pond which was quite deep, me and this kid climbed the gate on a weekend to go look at the frogs, he told me he couldn't swim so I shoved him and left. I was told when we went in to school on the Monday that if a dog walker hadn't of come past a minute later, he would of drowned and died, he wasn't in school for ages. Guess Dad was wrong.
4- It creeps me out when people start crying, I'm a shit comforter so I generally just stand there and go 'Man up for fuck sake'
5- I rarely spend money unless I deem necessary, which mean if left alone I nearly never eat unless I crave something.
6- Your safest if your going out with me rather than being my friend, I'm loyal as a girlfriend but I rarely look out for anyone but myself where my friends and family are concerned (although I don't mind my sisters from time to time)
7- I borrowed my sisters phone and accidentally dropped it in the toilet, when she went looking for it later I told her that cat knocked it in the sink because it was in the window sill, poor kitty wasn't forgiven for weeks, oh well. :/
8- I can do, or get most things if you name a price, or have something of interest to me
9- I like to know things ... It's a terrible habit, but it has it's positives, if you have patients. It normally means I sit there saying, 'tell me more' or 'what does that mean'(I can go on for hours), so whoever I'm talking to, if they're particularly partial to the subject (or it's themselves) get to talk and talk about it till the cows come home... If not the end up bored and pissed.
10- Cuddles.... I just can't stop myself, if I want to hug you, I will do so whether you want it or not, I love to cuddle
11- I have a sort of, issue, I like things clean and I like them tidy, otherwise I get frustrated and bothered and cranky, I don't know why (which is great for anyone who goes out with me if they don't like to do cleaning).
12- Also I hate surprises, I absolutely despise them, I like to know what's happening and when, I can deal with wrapped presents but surprise party's (for me obviously) I walk away from, they bring no joy to me, I just get annoyed -_-
13- I get angry on the topic of babies, I can talk about it fine but when I see my friends or family pregnant or some try's to get me to cuddle or hold theirs I get very upset and angry, if someone brings a baby to my house or I have to got to theirs I need to be pre-warned so I can sort of get over the fact before hand (I know that sounds silly but...). I think it's because I can't have any myself so it could be a sort of jealousy or unfairness. But I don't know how not to be like it.
14- I shamefully have to say, I'm part Canadian -_- I know dang Canadians get everywhere even in Britain
15- I always worry I'm not good enough because I have so many little issues, I feel I might be annoying or to weird.
So that's truths about me...
Vixen XoX